Monday, July 15, 2013

Is There Life Out There?

Are you married? 
 Do you have kids?  
Do you ever wonder, is there life out there?   

Do ever wonder how you ended up here?  Day after day of the same routine.  Wake up, feed the kids, change the diapers, drink a pot of coffee, chase the kids all day, referee the kids fights, listen to the baby cry, change more diapers, fix the kids lunch, get the baby to sleep, yell at the other kids for waking the baby up from his nap so you can listen to him cry some more, try to entertain the kids all day,  wash the dishes, vacuum the floors, mop the floors, make the beds, do the laundry, chase the dog out of the clean laundry, chase the dog for peeing on the floor you just mopped, cook dinner, set the table, listen to your husband tell you how rough his day was at work, (poor him, he got to spend his day talking to adults, you haven't even got to pee yet, he's breaking your heart, poor pitiful him), clear the table, wash the dishes, bathe the kids, tuck the kids in bed, rock the baby to sleep, finally it's 9 o'clock and you realize you forgot to comb our hair today.  Oh well, you are tired to care now.  You just want to take a shower and go to bed.  And you think to yourself ( I can get up tomorrow and do the same thing all over again, lucky me).
Super Mom Super Mom - Gary Patterson

So, you put that thought behind you and get into a steamy hot shower.  Finally you're alone, quiet, just the sound of the water running, you let out a huge sigh of relief.  As your body relaxes under the warmth of the water, tears begin to well up in your eyes, you are so tired that you don't know how you will do it again tomorrow, your tears come slowly at first, then like a rush of raging waters your tears turn into sobs.  As you cry you begin to wonder, "is there life out there, somewhere away from all the noise and chaos?"
All Things Considered...And Then Some: Sometimes, Crying In The Shower Is All You Need

Your mind takes you to some wonderful place in the sun where you've never been, you can feel the warm glow on your face.  Life is good here, time is your friend.  Your days are yours to do whatever you want to do.  Take a long stroll on the beach, feel the warm, white sand under our feet.  Sip wine by the waters edge and feel the cool tropical breezes and enjoy the wonderful smell of jasmine in the air.  You can smile, listen to music, go out with friends, meet a man who will appreciate you and pamper you.  Dance in the moonlight and make love under the stars.  Somewhere, somebody is living your dream life, why can't it be you?  You could just get in the car and drive, anywhere away from here, anywhere.  Go wherever the road takes you, just go, go, go now!
love on the beach       Dinner under the stars Paradise Bay Resort Whitsundays | via ledelicieux.com
If you had to make the same decisions again, would you? Would you do it the same as you did back then?


Does he still love you?  Do YOU still love him?  What about the kids, what were you thinking having all those kids?  Would you do it again?  Would you trade your 4 bedroom, vinyl sided, 2 story for a small beach cottage somewhere far away?  Would you trade your privacy fenced in back yard for a yard where the grass looks greener, or maybe the sands are whiter?  Don't think about that swingset that little Bobby fell off of and broke his arm, he told his heroic tale to everyone, he was so brave that day, you were so proud of him.  Certainly don't think about the huge birthday party you had in the back yard when Janie turned 4.  She loved her new Barbie riding car, all those happy kids running and playing that day.  Don't think about the beautiful fall day you stood under that gigantic old oak tree and told your husband that you were pregnant with #3. He picked you up and swung you around like a crazy man.  He was so happy he smiled for days. Forget the tender way he kissed you that night and told you he loved you and didn't know how he had ever lived without you.
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2. Smile!    Children are the happiest human beings on the planet, regardless of their situation and surroundings.      #kiss #kisses #kissing #couple #love #passion #romance

Suddenly you realize the water is now cold, you turn off the shower and wrap yourself in a big, soft towel. Your thoughts still wondering to another life. You long for rest  and head down the hall to check the kids one last time before the sweet relief of sleep is allowed. You quietly open the door to the boys room.  They are sleeping peacefully, the oldest one snores like his dad. You leave the door open just a crack and head to little Janie's room.  Her door is open so you tiptoe inside.  There she is, your little angel in her princess bed. She is snuggled up with that ratty old teddy bear that she carries everywhere.  She looks so precious, you kiss her forehead and quietly leave the room.  Now you are at the door to the nursery, the baby is sound asleep, you stand by his crib and listen to his rhythmic breathing, holding your breath so you can hear his. You touch his soft little cheek and kiss his forehead goodnight and then head for your bedroom.

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Sleeping baby

Your husband is already snoring lightly.  The night lamp is still on and the book he was reading has fallen to the floor beside the bed. You bend to pick up his book but you stop, you look at him, he's looks so different than he did so many years ago when you married him.  You wonder, "Does he still love me?  Do I still love him?"  You pick up the book, put it on his night table and crawl into bed. The bed feels so good, you are so tired from a really long day.  Then he rolls over and puts his arm around you and his sleepy voice whispers, "l love you."  You move closer to his warmth, wishing the thoughts of the day away and as you drift off to sleep you once again think, "tomorrow we will do it all again".
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So the question still remains, would you do it all over again?

Marriage is hard work.  Sometimes exhausting. There are times you feel so overwhelmed that you don't know if you can take another minute.  Days when you just want to run as far and as fast as you can.
Days when you look out the window and wonder, "Is there life out there?"

Do you really want to leave all this behind or is it just a bad day that will fade in your mind and be replaced with the wonderful laughter of your beautiful children and the warm touch of your husband?  Tomorrows another day, fresh and new, with no mistakes in it.  YOU can shape tomorrow into anything you want it to be.  The grass is not always greener.

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Angel

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24 comments:

  1. So true, on so many levels! Those years of raising small children are some of the hardest - but they pass by all too quickly!
    ~Peace,
    LuAnne

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    1. Hi LuAnne
      You are so right, raising a family is one of the hardest jobs in the world. Sometimes it is to tempting to only see the hard times and eventually give up. I've had my share of days like this but I'd still do it all over again. Thanks so much for visiting me today.
      Angel

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  2. Yes, I would do it all again. In an instant. As hard as some days may be, I couldn't wish any of it away.

    Regardless, we all need time and space to think and remember who we are and to do what we love. Try to nurture that space and time.
    xoxo

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    1. I'm with you Jennifer, I wouldn't trade it for anything. We all need a little "me" time and we need to remember that tomorrow is new and fresh.
      Thanks for visiting me and commenting on my post.
      Angel

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  3. Couldn't stop reading! Although I have no kids, I still recognise feeling overwhelmed by a too busy lifestyle but loving the memories you are making on the way!

    Mippoos commented on your post.

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  4. This is such a beautiful post Angel!

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    (¸¤ Lanaya | xoxo
    Raising-Reagan.com

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    1. Hi Lanaya
      Great to have you visit today. Thanks so much.
      Angel

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  5. i sometimes wonder what i did before i got my hubby & kids. funny thing is, i really can't remember. but i do remember life really starting when they came into my world, and a whole lot since then.
    i like the grass over here, weeds and all.
    thank you Angel thank you! XO

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    1. Hi Lisa
      Same here. I've been married for most of my life and I'm glad we stuck with it. I have days where I want to run down the street naked and screaming but I'm still happy.
      Thanks so much for your visit and comment.
      Angel

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  6. I WOULD do it all over again in a heartbeat. I'm a SAHM of two, and my husband works long hours. Thus, there is little adult interaction/companionship in my life. But, I think of the blessings God has given me and my heart is too fulfilled to let my routine overcome me. My motto is: Even the worst day is a great day as long as I'm with my family. Thanks for sharing this post!

    XOXO,
    Meredith

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    1. Hi Meredith
      I love your motto. Thanks for visiting and sharing with me today.
      Angel

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  7. Hi Lisa
    Same here. I've been married for most of my life and I'm glad we stuck with it. I have days where I want to run down the street naked and screaming but I'm still happy.
    Thanks so much for your visit and comment.
    Angel

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  8. Love this post! Found you through the Mouthwatering Mondays link up! Thanks for joining us and I hope you will be back! I'll definitely be checking out your blog more often!

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    1. Hi Catherine
      So glad to meet you. Thanks for visiting me too. I just left your blog and loved it. I'm your newest Twitter follower.
      Angel

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  9. My youngest is leaving for college in less than a month. I think I will miss all those full days. DYWW!!!

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    1. Hi Betty
      I'm not looking forward to any of them leaving the nest. I like my birdies close.
      Great to see you Betty.
      Angel

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  10. Awesome post Angel! Thanks for sharing & linking up with Soul Food Monday!

    ~SimplyyMayra :)

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    1. Hi Mayra
      I love linking up at your hop. Glad to have you visiting me today.
      Angel

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  11. Wow! I was not expecting that. You took me on quite a journey there. I've been a Mom and wife for 20 years already. My youngest is 6 so I have quite a few more years to go. I can't imagine what life would be without them (even though it is so crazy). When that time comes, I will have to rediscover who I am. That is scarier to me than the chaos of a full house.

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  12. Hi Christina
    Glad you like the post. Thanks for visiting me too. I just left your place and joined your hop. Also I'm your newest Bloglovin and GFC follower.
    Angel

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  13. Beautiful. Yes! I would do it all over again! I could never imagine life the way it is now and the positives always outweigh the negatives. What I don't have to worry about is being alone on a Friday night, increasing debts because I'm spending to fill a void in my life and ever filling not loved. Just simply beautiful.

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  14. Wow this was an amazing story! So glad that you linked up this post to the Get Fit Friday blog hop. Healthy living has to do with our well-being and how we view ourselves and our relationships not just nutrition and exercise so kudos to you for acknowledging that that post was so fitting! I'm a newlywed still (only 2 1/2 years in) and we only have one child who is 15 months but as I am duplicating those years and the number children in my mind I can definitely see how a woman could feel so overwhelmed in that situation. I feel overwhelmed by daily tasks of the day and I'm not at that point in my marriage just yet. It goes to show we all have moments where we think the same thoughts in those quiet little moments we have to ourselves as wives and moms. Thank you for sharing this! I really enjoyed reading it!

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  15. I have to say I love this entry. I don't experience this like I once did. I used to wonder if I would have married my ex if I had to do it over again. Then I look at my daughter and realize it was all worth it. I don't have a special man in my life at all, and sometimes I feel bad about that. But God has given me such a full life that I really don't think I have any major complaints. I have a blessed life even when my dad and I get in a big fight.

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  16. My husband has abandon me and the kids for the the past 8months now, and refuse to come back because he was hold on by a woman whom he just met, for that, my self and the kids has been suffering and it has been heel of a struggle, but i decide to do all means to make sure that my family come together as it use to, then i went online there i saw so many good talk about this the priestess Munak's spell powers, so i had to contact the priestess through the website, http://thespellpriestessmunak.webs.com and in just 2 days as she has promised, my husband came home and his behavior was back to the man i got married to, just as priestess has told me earlier.
    Thanks to the great priestess Munak, email is priestessmunak@gmail.com, happy at last.

    Lorenta

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